10 kudos
So, after writing that yesterday it turned out that my day was more like a negative million kudos. My mom is having a really hard time right now: her father is dying and can’t work but makes the effort to beat her, and she feels really alone. I miss her a lot and wish I could help her. She wants me to come down next weekend…ugh. But I talked to Rockstar about it and she said the worst that could happen was that I would have a shitty weekend, but if I didn’t go I would probably let it bother me a lot. I’m hoping it will help my mom out. She’s moving into her own apartment, getting away from Mimi and Grandad. I don’t even know what to think about them. It’s sad because I used to look up to Grandad more than anyone else. Then my sister came out.
Today was better though. After crying all night until I numbed myself with a movie, I felt a lot better. It’s funny how one minute you feel consumed by a problem but later (such as after a good night’s sleep) you feel farther away from it and see how you shouldn’t have gotten so worked up about it.
i love Taylor Swift’s Picture to Burn.
I’m glad I have Rockstar.
Wish me well next weekend.
