I feel all hot and nasty, like I’m gonna throw up. Weeks ago I got a letter from my Dad and just recently wrote back, providing my e-mail. I just got mail back from him. I’m not sure what to do. Life is so simplistic right now, I’m not sure I can handle anything painful anymore. I’m so afraid. How do you re-start a relationship that was torn apart for 6 years. I feel as if I can’t trust anyone anymore. I think it’s hurting my relationship with KC. My ability to trust is gone. I am always looking for excuses to be angry and find faults in people. KC told me that he did not want to be with someone who couldn’t enjoy life. It’s just so hard.